http://www.ktla.com/news/landing/ktla-cigarette-beating,0,7963479.story

it's a good thing i've never said no to someone who's wanted to bum a cig off of me....
fuckin' insane ass people out there...
it seems like there's even more of them after this whole economy thingy..

seriously.. i think years from now, everyone's gonna look like plastic.
there are so many damn surgeries in the world.
the newest craze? removing back fat that cannot be gone from just exercising..
i don't think that's NOT possible.
when you run. you lose fat all around your body.
so it shouldn't be hard to lose the fat from your back...

.. have you ever seen a thin girl with back fat???
uh no.
so i think that's a stupid new procedure...
people are insane..

i miss going clubbing.
but... i can't seem to figure out what exactly the reason is that i miss it...

hmm i think i'll list my clubbin experiences and maybe YOU can tell me what the reason may be..

- creeper drilling a whole into me while i'm dancing & finally after 20 minutes he comes and asks if i want to dance. and i say "well... i really want a drink first" (my way of saying no.. cause what guy really is gonna buy a girl a drink just for a dance?.. well that's what i thought at least). he looks at me and goes, "you want me to buy you a drink just so i can dance with you?" me: yep!. him: "fuck that. you're expensive" me: "ok! bye!". i continue to dance. he continues to stand on the side and stare at me. and then 10 mins. later, he comes back and says, "hey, ok, let me buy you a drink" me: "no thanks! not in the mood to drink anymore". he storms off pissed. and then later when i'm leaving the club. i'm thinking that i'm holding my gf's hand b/c someone slipped their hand into mine and she was walking behind me. suddenly, i see my gf walk ahead of me & yet i'm still holding onto "HER" hand.. i look at my gf going past me. i look down at my hand. i look behind me. and it's the creeper, smiling at me. i literally screamed and booked it. hahahhaha

- creeper #2 comes out of nowhere and starts dancing behind me. i motion to my girls about whether he's cute or not. and they give me a thumbs down. so i try to move away, but he keeps thrusting his fuckin' pelvis into my ass. so i finally just stand there and not move. and he gets bored & pissed and walks away.

- i almost get thrown out of the club for smoking in the bathroom b/c i was drunk & couldn't find a patio and really wanted to smoke. so security opened the girl's bathroom door and saw me and kicked me out. he took me to the bouncer to tell him to not let me back in. and i sweet-talked the bouncer and he just said, "ok.. don't do it again" and the security guy was pissed that i got let off

- i got burned by a drunk girl who was smoking and couldn't steady herself and her hand was flying everywhere!

- the ratio of the club is usually 50:1 (females to males) haha

- i took a nap on a guy's shoulder and had no recollection to this until the morning after. and i slapped myself after remembering.

- had to use the guy's restroom cause a girl threw up in the girl's restroom. i cut in front of 20 guys in line and told the first guy to make sure to not let anyone in the restroom. i was too drunk & apparently forgot to lock the door b/c as i was pee-ing, i heard the door open and then a guy yell, "SHUT THE DOOR! A GIRL'S USING THE BATHROOM!" hahaha. again.. i was too drunk to even care.

- a guy who was a beer keg for halloween was dancing behind me. and a part of his costume was that he had a beer bottle hanging out where his "you know" is supposed to be. that dance lasted like 5 seconds before i moved to another spot.

yes... even with all these experiences.. clubbin is worth it to me b/c i just love dancing with music on full blast and lights dimmed. i could be by myself and i'll still have fun. :)

i went to my bf's work over the weekend.
and i saw the cutest baby.
one of his coworker's baby girl.
like.. she was so ugly... that she was cute.. y'kno? hahah
and when i told my bf that, he was like, "how much must u like kids where u think that ugly babies are cute?"
seriously. i really want to be an elementary school teacher. not preschool because i want to actually talk to the kids. haha
but the dad let me hold the baby. and oh my gosh. i melted!
it was weird.. back when i was like in high school, i did NOT know how to hold a baby! every baby would cry once he/she was in my arms because i wasn't holding him/her properly.
but this baby.. oh my gosh.. like she just fit perfectly in my arms and was smiling the whole time while looking at me.
i told the mom i was gonna steal her baby.. hahaha

it feels really good to talk to a level-headed person. and by level-headed.. i mean non-judgmental. fuck... those kind of girls are really hard to come by these days.
it's like i already know everything. i'm trying to deal with things.. possibly with the help of other people. but if it's just gonna be people passing judgment.. how does that make things any easier for me? i'm better off just dealing with my life by myself. i've been doing it for almost a year now.. and i'm doing pretty fine.

so yeah.
i'm supppppperrrrr excited for saturday though! :)
god... i never thought i'd see the day where i'd actually look forward to weekends... i was in such a slump for a long time and now i'm backkk... hahaha

whatever

i'm waiting for 3 to roll around.
i don't know why i'm so exhausted. i slept at like 11:30 (after i HAD to watch nip/tuck & then watched some UFC). i woke up.. and seriously snoozed my alarm as much as i could. i was planning on leaving for work earlier so i could grab some starbucks on the way.
BUT i woke up @ 7 am.. got ready in 15 mins. and then it was too late to make any kind of pit stops.
i'm seriously dying right now. & i left my gym bag at home. which means that i'm gonna have to go home after work & THEN go work out. and that usually doesn't work out for me.. 95% of the time. once i'm home, i don't want to go out.. which means that i end up not going to work out.

hopefully it won't be like that today... haha

the coffee this morning was not delicious at all.. kalab warned me.. but i figured i would love it because i needed it so bad!
blah.. now i'm still tired... only 2 more hours to go at work. but i have to go to the gym after this.
i'm drained. mentally & physically...

i don't know why i'm feeling so sad.i honestly have no idea. it's just something's like poking my brain and i'm trying to ignore it, but it's affecting the way i act. i'm trying to ignore it b/c i have no idea what it is that's bothering me. maybe going to the gym today will help me.
hopefully, with the cardio & stretching, i'll be able to blow off whatever it is that's bugging me.

yum, one of the lawyers got me a coffee... i so need it. the smell is intoxicating!

at work right now.. i'm not taking my lunch until 1:30 because that's when my bf goes on his lunch & so we get to talk over the phone.
we're already looking forward to the weekend.
my lawyer boss is insane. every other word is "fuck" hahahhaa.
he's like that lawyer that miranda dated from "sex and the city". that's how wound up & crazy he is. no joke! he even kind of looks like him..... hahaha
weirdddd.
i was lost this morning. walking around the business park.
oh.. and the slit on the back of my skirt ripped.. way up......
i was SOOOO glad i happened to be wearing a scarf so i just wrapped it around my waist...
i don't know what i would've done otherwise.
it's like RIPPED...
i can't wait to go home & sew it back together... hahaha

my stomach's grumbling & i want some coffee.

err.... i was tryin to edit my previous blog entry & it got DELETED...
whatevers.. i said what i needed to say haha
& whoever got to read it, great! whoever didn't.. wasn't that important.
just me babbbling like always :)

i start work on monday. so i'm enjoying the free time i have until then.
of course, it gets boring when the bf comes home from work at like 9 or 10pm.. and then knocks out.. and then i watch family guy, george lopez, & cheaters by myself until i'm tired... haha
i can't wait to start working again.
i hate NOT working. it gets boring for me.

u kno what job would be awesome to have?
i want to be that guy in man v. food.. adam richman
can u imagine having a job in which u travel around and taste the country's best food???
omg.. i love that show.. my mouth is always drooling during the episodes!
ok.. so i have a small appetite in the sense that i get full really quick.. but i also get hungry really quick.
so maybe i wouldn't be able to beat any of the challenges.
actually i think that i could've beaten the ice cream challenge! it was like 1 lb. of ice cream, 10 scoops of whip cream, 5 bananas, or something like that. hahahaha. i mean i would've had to spend the whole day at the gym the next day, but that would've been pretty yummy!

omg. i'm watchin an episode right now. he's eating this italian beef sandwich thingy.. damn... i'm hungry!

my bf & i went to chris weir's bbq party last night. we went in there thinkin, "oh we should only stay like an hour or so since my bf has work early in the morning.." well... we actually overwelcomed our stay and eventually had to be kicked out with the rest of the late stayers... hahah. food was delicious! i ate a salmon burger, the "almost better than sex" cake, hot links, lemon meringue pie, chocolate cheese cake... yeah... i ate way too much dessert~
which explains why i woke up so bloated!!
it was definitely good times. i didn't drink b/c my baby was downing scotches.. haha and so i assumed i would be DD.
we spent most of the party outside on the couches next to the heat lamps :)

now i need to go & work out.. so i can work off all the food i pigged out on!
but im feelin pretty lazy right about now~~~~ haha

sometimes...
no.. a lot of times..
i really don't know what to believe.

job interview went great today. &.... i got the job!
i'll be working as a receptionist for a law firm. i love the environment. it's just a bunch of guys who like to have fun but still work hard.
apparently, the lawyer LOVED my resume. and not just the background history in my resume, but my cover letter is what caught his eye. he said that out of all the resumes he's received, my writing just stood out and how the sentences were structured correctly.
at the end, he was like, "you know what. i'm not beating around the bush anymore. you got the job. you start one week from this monday" :)

i've never had a job offered to me on the spot, so that felt pretty damn good!

and he was like, "yeah you're the face of this company because you're the first person a client sees when he walks through our doors.. so it's a good thing you're not butt ass ugly" hahahaha
i was like, "mm... thank you??" and he was like, "the receptionist needs to have a great smile.. which i've already seen you have. you're perfect. yeah, you got the job. i'm not gonna interview anyone else"
the business park is amazing. it's sooooo beautiful. i think i'm gonna love working here.
all the guys who work there seem realllll chill.
and apparently.. if i'm good at what i do and i work hard.. there's potential for bigggg raises!!!

here's to hoping!

so i saw this old coworker of my bf's when we visited his old work today~
and as soon as she saw me she was like, "you lost weight! u look like u got skinnier"
:) yayy.. i've only been working out a week.. but i guess it's showing?
motivation even more for me to keep this up!!
god.. i need to get back to my old weight in like my freshman year of high school. notice how i didn't say just "high school years".. b/c i got fat after my freshman year~ :)
i'm not totally depressed with my body right now.. but i definitely want to lose a few.. or 20.. haha

err.. i just ate chinese.. i wasn't even hungry, but we had chinese delivered to our place and if there's food in front of me.. i really can't say no~~

omg.. my head is hurting sooo bad.. like i have a fuckin' migraine or something~
my bf told me it's b/c i hadn't smoked a lot of cigs today.. fucked up huh?
yeah.. apparently my body needs it now.. (although i'm not like those cracked out smokers who are dying w/o a cig).. but my head is hurting pretty bad

yeah.. today drained me out..
i worked out again this morning~.. i was seriously about to go home b/c i was not in the mood to work out.. but i knew i would regret it~...
so i was glad i went. did 15 mins on the treadmill, 15 mins. on the elliptical. did my leg squat workouts.. 300 crunches.. and a whole lot of stretching! gotta keep my body flexible :)

fmylife.com
today, i went on a blind date. we had agreed on meeting in front of a park. thinking i was there first, i texted her "i'm already there, sitting next to the fat chick." i heard a beep. SHE was the 'fat chick.' FML.

ohhhhhhhhh my gosh... i laughed so hard when i read that one! hahaha