wow..

I don't even know anymore...
I'm at a loss for words.. Why do I always have to be the one getting reprimanded for getting mad about the situation at hand? Others wouldn't reacted much worse..
And yet.. I had to feel guilty instead of.. U kno what? I can't even form sentences right now... I never thought I would have to experience what it is I did..

My guard is definitely back up.

wow... haven't written in this thing in a while.

a thought popped into my head and i wanted to write it down..
vent.. as usual

i really don't like people who feel/act like that they can never be wrong.
people make mistakes. shit happens.
OWN UP TO IT!
stop denying it.. when i make mistakes at work, i know that i fucked up and the only thing i can say to them is, "sorry"
of course, at work, saying sorry doesn't really fix the situation, but at least i don't deny the fact that i fucked up...
who cares if the boss is gonna yell at you.. it lasts for like 5 seconds!
just grin & bear those 5 seconds, and it'll be over before you know it.

i also don't like people who think i'm stupid.
i mean, it doesn't bother me that they think i'm something that i'm not (there are so many other things people think i am that i'm really not so i'm like immune to it)
but the thing that bothers me is that that person acts like she's soooo much smarter than me... please...
i see the way you live your life and i don't know what you have that makes you think you're so much better than other people...

my weird dream

i had the most weirdest dream ever..

of course i looked up all the symbols.. & i have some repressed anger going on or something..

Knife
To dream that you are carrying a knife, signifies anger, aggression and/or separation. There may be something in your life that you need to cut out and get rid of. Alternatively, the knife may be symbolic of something divisive in your life. You may be attempting to cut ties or sever some relationship.

Check
To see a check in your dream, suggests that you may feel indebted to others. The dream may also be a pun on checking things out.

Cut
To dream that you are cutting yourself, indicates that you are experiencing some overwhelming turmoil or problems in your waking life. You are trying to disconnect yourself from the unbearable pain you are experiencing.

Chase
To dream that you are chasing someone, signifies that you are attempting to overcome a difficult goal or task. You may also be expressing some aggressive feelings toward others.


hmm.. i don't know

I am soooo full right now! Stupid ā10 any topping pizzas from pizza hut :( didn't even work out today! Gotta be strict on my diet for this week. Weekend was real good. Got a new blackberry from my bf as an early anniversary gift. Got to shop for a ton of earrings. Today we went to venice which is always nice. Then went to ikea and bought some shit to fill our apartment with... Yay! Now he's working on building the 2 dressers with a couple of friends.. They've been workin on it for quite awhile now.. Haha

pet peeves

i haven't posted in a longggggg time
& i decided to post about pet peeves of mine!
i know.. it's friday.. i should be all happy go lucky..
but aside from some stress i've been dealing with.. work is just annoying me today! haha

pet peeves list:
- when people aren't articulate when they speak and they say, "umm... uhh..." a lot in between words. my mind automatically shuts off & i'm probably not paying a whole lot of attention to what you're saying

- when girls have staring problems. i'll continue to stare at you with the dirtiest look i have until you look away. you start it, i'll finish it.

- waiters/waitresses who don't know how to be a waiter/waitress

- when girls take pictures of themselves with their hands covering their faces.. unless you're a hand model... i don't see what the point is. and like every single picture, the hand is placed on a different part of their face (over the mouth, over the nose, etc.) the weirdest one i've seen is when the hand is like laying on the side of the girl's cheek. it's soo annoying.

- when people don't understand sarcasm & it's worse if i have to explain that i'm being sarcastic and what i really meant & blah blah.. it just takes the joy out of the whole conversation.

entry from fml*
Today, my ex-boyfriend and his new girlfriend bumped into me at McDonald's. I was sitting alone at a table with a big mac, two large fries, a large drink and 1 case of chicken nuggets. FML

omg...
that seriously sounds like something that would happen to me...
except.. that girl was stupid.. there's a drive-thru for a reason!
i mean.. i could pig out like that.. but in the confines of my own home please~ :)
i'm sad though.. i've been so sick..
and every food that enters my mouth just comes right back up!
and i'm like hungry.. but not at the same time..
b/c food just doesn't taste good for me.. so what's the point of eating if i can't friggin enjoy it???

yes.. very sad...

but seems like the cold is slowly going away.... hopefully~

definition of me

according to urbandictionary...
this is what my name means :)

Definition 1
a fun, outgoing person. generally smart but can be a total blonde at times. someone who likes meeting new people, and smiles a lot. a person who never would just turn on people. a very good friend. someone you can trust. when she's mad, stand clear she might blow her top. but a person who doesn't get mad easily so you dont have to worry about that.

that definition.. the whole blonde thing.. and the mad thing.. it really does define me.. weird......

Definition 2
A funny girl. Really smart, and usually doen't act her age.(wether it be acting older or younger)Jennifer's have amazing eys, and love to laugh and smile. They generaly enjoy the finer things in life. They have trouble showing their feelings, and take sometime to warm up to new poeple. They don't trust easily, but that shouldn't stop you from trusting them, they are very trustworthy. They need someone who will listen to them and give their honest opinion. Jennifers are very blunt, and speak their minds often. They are caring and usually very sexy. They know how to flirt in a very suddle way that drives men crazy. They know how to get what they want. Jennifers are very good friends.

Definition 3
A really sexy, funny, smart girl that every guy wants.

true that... hahahhaha i kid i kid.